ask me to stay

There's is a specific person that I've always wanted to say those four words and eleven letters. I know that I am very good at leaving people behind or to put it nicely moving on. I am not the kind of person who can manage to stay in one place and be happy with it. I want to keep my feet and body in a constant motion or else I will go crazy. I don't even know what it is about packing and unpacking that I crave for so much how stressful it might be. I don't know why I love it when I am standing on the street with my luggage in tow waving for a cab to take me to the airport and even losing a shoe or two because it slipped out of my extra bag. I don't know what it is about airports, its insufferable security, its tasteless food that I keep on wanting. All I can tell is that I love the idea of living in a new house, living with house mates, walking along unfamiliar streets and watching how people live in that community. The reason why I am giving this little speech is that there are people who are asking me to stay in the company. It is certainly insidious, very much so. I can, if arrangements are made and done, stay but for an entirely different reason. I'm staying because I want to spend more time (yelping and grinning and sometimes dissatisfaction involved) with this one guy (friend or co-employee or whatever). As I subtly mentioned in my previous posts it's starting to be an obsession already. Which is funny.
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I'll be seeing Jane and the rest of the gang in a few days. Nikkolaison and Carl already knows and I am really hoping I'd spend some time with them. Nikkolaison promised me we will but Carl seems to have other plans. I feel annoyed about it. I even felt I am not someone likable. So I asked Nikkolaison, he said and i quote, "you're pretty, intelligent, kind, nice and rich that's why I love you." and I thought he is being a jerk again. Geez, what a sorry excuse I have for a friend. Anyways, I don't think I want to stay, even if he will be the one who will ask me to.

(I'm sorry about the picture BUT it's the perfect description so...)